the really beautiful part...

..is that todd and i have been fooling around for about 10 years on and off.  hes a brooding loner who is distant emotionally but super charged sexually. kissing has been a no no as its too emotionally connecting.  its the one thing that ive missed terribly from him for 10 years now and last night he kissed me...open mouth tongue jockeying...it made me want to cry